today whOle day sick..felt so drowsy..and keep sneezing and sleeping. wasted one whole day. nv prac cello..nv do theory..omg..then next yr O level results will be released early! i havent fix date with the audition teachers..cannot contact ji laO shi..haydn play not good..headache ah..

last tues went to mh house..he went through haydn with me..got alot of mistakes plus the music gan jue is not right..mh play so good! his vibrato all these..wow..wOnderful..but me..still no improvements..haix..i mus work hard! yea!

christmas cOming le..hahax..but then my christmas spirit disappear le...cos too stressed le...i everything alsO stressed de..growing up is tough ah..AHH~

yoyoz..yesterday went back to pasir ris for the last prac..i reach at around 3pm..then 4.30 prac stop le..omg..i thought until night then stop..hahax..then we sit bus back to boon lay..

i didnt want to go home so early..so went to JP...shouldnt have went there. so many ppl!! want to go arcade..but no place put cello..want to eat...but also no place to put my cello..so end up went to mac again..omg..i felt guilty after eating mac..so fattening..so i carried my big heavy cello and walked home..lolx..before that i went to the library..finally i get to sit on the beanbags!! =D so comfOrtable wor..wahaha..

later gotta prac cello wor..i got do one theory paper before coming to blog..see..now got disipline le..wahaha..but i still dun have much confidence in my cello playing..haix..of all concertos why haydn?? i wan..erm..bach concerto! yea! lol..im very stressed now..thats why keep blogging..? erm..i dono..arghhh..

dono wad he say is true or nOt...but...i think i have some feelings for him..but..how can that be? erm..i dono..dun wan to think of these things le..i jus wan to be with my friends..

im cOughing like nuts...has been going one for days le. it's a morning cough..very xin ku..very tired ah..later still gotta go cc camp..i nv stay overnight..nOt used to it..lol..so yesterday asked my dad to fetch me home..he asked wad my decisions are..i told him im choosing digital media in sp nt yr...music will be my second choice..i love it..but it's true that in singapore, music wont get u anywhere..unless u're really good..during this yr, i've heard opinions from many ppl, and most of them tell me music is useless in sing...only one out of ten tell me to go for my dreams..

so..i decided to have a diploma in studies first..i really hope to get in digital media..hope cello can save me..haix..but now ji laO shi is overseas..and i dono wad to do..my haydn isnt getting any better..and next yr i have theory exam..*scream* im really nervous..anyway, i really pity my dad for having to work without resting much all week..nowadays cannot get much passengers..and u know wad!! got 2 passengers sat his taxi..then they run out without paying..$18! wa lao..so angry..! do they know how hard my dad has to work! these ppl are so cruel..

btw my bro bought a PS2!! wah!!! so cool! there's a dog game inside..very fun one! it's like taking care of a real dog..when u call out to it it will come over de..but u mus record ur voice so it recognises u..then can teach it how to do tricks!!! can play bubbles with it...when u blow..there will be bubbles de..hahax..so fun..then some of the games inside is like arcade games.. =D hahax..

okie..gOing off to play pangya le! or later cant play..wahaha..pangya! <3 lolx...dun worry i will prac cello and do my theory also de..^^ take care everyone!

tOday actually wanted to go mu he house prac cello de...but i overslept..so..end up nv gO T_T hahax..so i went back to sleep. i had this really scary dream. i dreamt i found a instruction booklet on how to take out each organ from ur body. so weird...then i chose the most easy organ to take out...i think the lungs or kidney..omg..then i take out! erm..then i wanted to put back..but i dono how..the book nv teach!! then i very scared..i was in pain..then i woke up le..i got dream bout a lot of things..but somehow i only can recall this..i wonder wad this dream means...

i didnt prac much cello..cos..haydn is so hard to play...then i no mood to play le..die ah..er..but today got learn quite a lot of theory..learnt alot from matt...=D thanks!!! i finally understand many things..things that the music cd nv teach..hahax..

then jus nOw playing pangya...the person i played with..she hole in one!!!!! omg..i see le stunned ah...so pro...T_T hahax...pangya is so fun...oops~ i shouldnt be playing pangya...ARHHH..should prac cello..haix..hard ah..one day gone jus like dat...so fast..

yoyo!!!! yay!! today gOt prac 3 hrs of cello!! goody.. :D mostly is prac hadydn concerto and js bach...i can play a little of the whole concerto le..some parts realli cannot figure out how to play..but..im realli thankful for the youtube haydn concerto video!!! cos..without it, i wont know how to play le...=D i beginning to like the song le..it's quite nice..espescially the allegro part..

nOw no teacher le..haix..quite worried..and lost..i dono how to prac ah...haix.....

i bought 2 puremilk shirt..christmas de...soo cute!!!! :D i saw the t shirt in teens magazine and i fell in love with it right away...wahahaha..erm..it's not that nice..i dono why i like it too..but it's quite cute..hahax..haven buy my fren present...and...i need money now...but there's no concerts to perform in now.. :( haix..

saw many dancing christmas trees in JP...so cute..i wan..! the tree got wear christmas hat somemore..hahax..so funni...

OMG!!!! julian hee nv get in the top 10 male artiste!!! why!!! he acted so well..i think chen wei lian shouldnt get de T_T he only act in one show..! but nvm...elvin got in!! ^^ omg..his smile so cute..he was so nervous...hahax..i didnt get to see the young talent award one...but i think doudou got in...her acting damn good..actually all of them acted very well..i like kyle and rachell..so cute!! :D jarren too..and zoei..lol..i like all of them actually..jessica liu got in top 10! and rui en and felicia chin!!!! wow!!! i love their acting!!! so natural de..wooow!!!! i wan watch star awards again..cos i didnt get to see the young talent one..ARHHH~

erm..today went to teach again...still nOt veri sure of wad to teach..haix..but she quite hardworking wOr! cos the mistakes i told her last week..she got write them down..hahax..goody! she learns quite fast too..i think she should find a better teacher...cos i dono how to teach..i feel so bad.. :( after teaching i rush down to cc le..im still not veri familiar with the songs..left only few pracs...nono..i think no more le..left the camp? i dun wan go the camp leh..so far..hahax..but dun go how to prac?! wahaha..

think from tmr onwards gOing to be veri busy le...cos got to chiong theory and cello....the haydn concerto i still dono how to play!!! omg..tmr i realli have to concentrate ah..connot slack le...mus prac super hard..then maybe one day i can be like the 13 yr old prodigy =D motivation!!!!!! wahahhaa..no ah...where got so prO..daydreaming only..

yoyoyoyo....today so stressed ah!!!!! cOS i realise that i have many things to do...so many things until i dont feel like doing..i keep worrying about this and that..haix..i have so many things to do!!!! i still haven practice hadyn concerto...haven touch music theory..haven find out about poly application..haven pass XW the music books..and..ji laO shi is going to china soon..no one to nag at me to prac le..how!!? haix..i feel so down..especially cos i feel like im falling back to the past again..why?? what should i do..? what am i supposed to do..? i don even noe what to do everyday!!

let's see..tmr i have to prac cello, study theory, pass xw the books..get phone no from ji lao shi..call the music job..all i have to do is to plan my time..yea! er..i guess there's still time for pangya..hahax..i'm thinking of writing a song...it's a verii nice song...but i don noe if i have the time..haix..im so stressed..so tired..wan to sleep..being a musician is hard..

hmm..btw wad is the fastest way to earn lots of money in one month? besides working..?

ooh..share a video with all of u...it's another haydn concerto..this is the concerto im going to play for poly audition..i haven prac yet!!!!!! omg...i dono wad to do ah..haix..



he play quite good de..only 14 yrs old...but..the other haydn concerto nicer right..?? hahax..

yoyO!!!!! my burfday's over!!!! waaaaaaa :(

thanks to everyone fOr the birthday wishes!! so touched ..hahax..perrrc and yy ma wished me happi bdae on the dot! wOw!!! =D thanks!!!!!! erm..went out with yy and keith yesterday..yy treat me to sakae sushi and swensen's ice cream!! omg..i felt so bad T_T hahax..but wow..really very touched leh...thanks so much yy ma!!!!! yay! =D

thanks tO saddix apg for the chocolates and shirt too!! i finished half of all the chocolates le..oops~ yumyum..hahax..mom bought me a snake plushie..bro bought me a magic ball! hehe..so fun! thanks everyone!!!!! ^^

wOW!!! today's my burfday!! and mr cactus's burfday!! and this is my 300th post!!!! *gasp* wowowowow..hahax.. =P thanks tO everyone for the birthday wishes!!! so gan dong! =D

hahax..erm..yesterday went to teach cello..dono wad i teaching also..i start with the scales first..but her scales was alright..then i didnt noe how tO improve her playing..so we went on to ex pieces..waw...got some mistakes..then talk talk talk..she got try to correct her mistakes..tt's goody! but then sometimes she will forget..hahax..omg..i very nervous ah!!! i dono how to teach!!!!! :( i think she dun realli like to play cello...cos when she was playing, she will sigh a little..hahax..anyway, her mom veri friendly..phew..haha..

hmm..let u all see one videO..



this kOrean girl..only 13 yrs old!!!! and she's playing hadyn concerto!! omg..i have to play hadyn concerto for my nafa audition..but not this one..omg..the score so hard!!! so many tenor and treble clefs de T_T sob..but she play so good right!!! 13 yrs only!!!!!!! omg!!!!!! *faint*
wahaha..erm..tt's all le..have a goOdy day!!! :D:D im going out..! yay!!!!!!!

yoyO!!!!

yesterday had to gO for syco audition. me and XW took cab down..the driver so weird..he kept mumbling to himself...then we didnt want to go inside the carpark..but he insisted to go inside..then he charge us 50 cents more! then we got charged for the ERP too..omg..T_T but he quite good..he got out of his taxi to help us put our cello in the back. wahaha..
XW so funni...he say he boy..so mus pay more..so cute..

reached there le still very early..so we prac cello at the smoking area..wahaha..

then....exam time!!! omg omg..sooo nervous!!! i went in the audition room..sit down...then i saw a cello score there..OMG! i thought is sight reading! then before the judges said anything, i started to play le...then all of them look at each other..then they laugh! AHH~ >_< so pai sey...!!!! then the conductor told me to play excerpt B and D...the hardest of all the excerpts..my hands were so stiff!! then i played many wrong notes..plus the sound not zhun..then got some parts i stop! omg..so stressed..got 3 judges looking..plus a camera..

hahax..a lot of us played excerpt B and D...only yi yuan..she played all except A..wow..

then after the exam, everyone go home le..then me and yy ma decided to go watch movie!! :D yay! we smuggled long john inside..wahahaha...the show so cute and funni! happy feet! i like the dancing parts..nice!!!!!

after the show over le, all the shops already close...then we talk talk..hahax..then got to go home le :(

hahax..wow..long entry..omg..gtg le..take care!!!