HARLO! hmmm, havent been updating for a few days cos I was away to Genting. Sorry Zestistians for not going out with u all..I really feel bad..=(

hmm, well..the going part wasnt too good. I felt sick and wanted to vomit. The bus kept playing the song "lao shu ai da mi" until I knew how to sing it. -____-" the thing is..I fell in love with the song! it is so cute! nice song..hope I have enough to buy the cd =D

We played many many games..more than 20. I got tricked to sit on the rollar coasters for more than 2 times. sigh..I almost flew out of my seat. =) the flying coaster was really scary. omg..and I sat mine train and wooden boat..all terrifying..trust me, except Euro-express. I regret not going for the corkscrew =( I was too scared..sigh..and fear held me back..

the 2nd day, I sat spinner for 4 times! After that I felt so giddy I wanted to vomit again. that was after dinner..haha..we sat tea cup, elephant, bumper boats. We went on the motion master, raindeer, ferris wheel too. Flying dragon wasnt open!! arghh..! I wanted to go to the haunted house..but I heard it's really scary..and I wanted to go ripley too..but no money..I wanted to save up for the souviniers..[dunno how to spell =D]

We watched 2 movies too! King Kong and the promise! I wanted to watch the cronicles of narnia..but it was all sold out..sigh..hmmm, then we went shopping! couldn't get enough of it =D haha, now I really feel like going there again..I wanna play and shop..we ate supper, slept late..so fun..I ate fast food until when I came back, I didnt want to eat S'pore food anymore..=X

haha, there is more..but..dont wanna bore u guys..so I'm stopping here! kinda miss my friends during the trip though..hope I get a job soon..sigh...byebye! miss u folks! ^-^ the pictures...I'm trying to upload in friendster..hope it'll work..! bbbyyyyeeee!

Today is the real XMAS day!! MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!! Yesterday I went to my Aunt's house to celebrate christmas. All the food had me drooling beside the table. No kidding! There were turkey, ham, prawn salad, sausages, Japanese biscuits, sotong balls, grilled chicken wings. The main dish was the bee hoon of course. We had to wait for my other aunt to come before eating though. I fiddled a bit with the piano. =D

Guess what caught my attention next? The CHRISTMAS TREE!! OMG!!1 It was beautiful! It made the place lively and chrismassy! gosh..! I ate quite a lot..hehe..shouldn't have..cos..they brought the cake out after that! -____-" ahhhh..the cake was nice!! a log cake..with snow sprinkled over it. =D

How nice and memorable. I'll never forget that day! hmmm..so, today is christmas and I'm home. haha..I dont really mind. I believe christmas should be celebrated with our own family. since..we're all half-christians except for my dad. actually, I'm the only one who is delighted with christmas in the family. -__- I thought of waiting for santa claus yesterday..but I didnt think he would come anyway. I havent been a good girl =X so, I ate the cookies myself =D sorry santa..can I celebrate christmas with u next year?

Feeling down, a girl sits down on soil, crying her heart out. Tears flow down from her face to the soil, thus providing the thirsty ground with water. With water, green grass and pretty flowers starts to grow unexpectedly out of the ground.

Hmm..I just wanted to say that whatever that happens, it may not always be bad. Look at the bright side. Maybe what you thought was bad will turn out good eventually.

Sigh..feeling really sad.

Leave me alone..

go away..

I went to Johore [spelt like this?] with my mom, aunt and cuzzie yesterday. Hm, actually the main aim to go there was to shop for cheap items, but we end up buying some cds only. I bought Zathura! The quality isn't very good I guess..but..at least it's still watchable =D I couldn't find any slippers or skirts there. Well, I did..but those were too expensive [Rm159] Gosh..

We retured to S'pore after eating Mac..their Mac chilli is so not nice!! =O Sigh..but the french fries still tasted great =D We dropped by at This Fashion and tried some skirts over there. I bought one!! It's really nice..the pattern. I saw two more which I really liked, but guess what?! Too large. Sigh..disadvantage of shopping at this fashion! Only some stocks of one item. Mom said to save it for New Year..ahh!! That is so long away =( That this fashion was quite big! I'm going there to shop for skirts next time! =D

Recently, I've been feeling quite down. It's the fever that has been going around I guess. Everyone is feeling down. Sigh..and I've been jobless till now. Don't even ask why.

I tried to download some animated display pics, but can't. cos I'm not a com admin on this com. [which is quite safe actually] Sigh..just doing some quizzes to pass time. These recent weeks, I've been trying to skip practice without fail. I dont know why, I just didnt want to go. When the phone rings, I know it's them..and I want to crouch in a corner and scream until the ringing stops. Somehow, I know it's going to be hell for me if I go. I know I'm selfish. But everytime I go, the more I dont want to go for the next prac. The only co I'm sort of willing to go is syco. When my school resumes, how can I go for 3 COs a week?!!! I know they won't let me off. It's my holiday now. I feel bad..for skipping practices. I just dread Saturdays and Sundays. I feel bad. So bad. So bad that it's torturing me. So bad..

I just want to drown myself into fantasies. I dream of visiting Zathura, going through the door of narnia. I want to enjoy my holiday..I want to go out with my friends. I want to spend some time with my family. I want to play. That's all.

Nosy Level: 100%

You have a wild and crazy imagination, and this can lead you to being very nosy as you strive to check out whether your theories are true. You get very occupied with your own thoughts and create fantastic stories out of the things that you think are happening in people's lives. It might be a good idea to concentrate more on your own life.

*****

Your Sixth Sense Score: 70%You are reasonable and won't get blown by temptations. However, you might miss some great opportunities.

http://quizbox.com/personality/test51.aspx

*****

You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. You often come up with solutions to problems. You are an ambitious person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

http://quizbox.com/personality/test48.aspx?cmd=07

Sigh..I'm feeling so bad. Trying to forget everything.

Sorry friends...

sigh..I feel weird..i dont know what to do!!!! perhaps I'm too lonely or..I'm growing up? what?? *blur*

I want to contact aliens..anyone..wants to join?

Sigh..I'm in a daze..

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

My hair is straight!! straight! hmm..actually I prefer layer...=( nvm..nvm..after a few months I'll go cut layer..

Guess what?! my mom dispproves me of dying hair!! arghh! She got influence by the hair lady again..the barber I mean =D sigh..nvm..I understand her point. Actually I was planning to dye my hair greenish brown..it's really nice. haha..I know, too weird..

So far, the comments I've got is.."not very nice", "too straight"?! and all said I should cut layer..! I know I know..I regret it..

hmm..nvm..since I've already done it..so for now, let me enjoy the feeling of being a barbie doll! =D Confidence is pretty! muhahahaa..

hmm..today I'm going for hair rebond!! Yesterday I had my hair cut to a little more than shoulder length. Not very nice..I didnt do layer..cos the lady said layer not very nice on rebond hair..=(

hmm..wondering if it will suit me. haha..think nvm ba..should be adventurous and try out new things! yea..=D

hmm..take care everyone..promise to update soon..

Sigh..

Why did such a thing happen? It's so shocking.

I hope he would start over again. He was always nice and caring. I cant believe it..so shocking..

so..sudden..

Er...the entry below is crap. Haha, I had nothing to do..so just drew a picture! of hatred. ahahaha..yess..! =D

So...now, concert's over! Yay. haha..yesterday I was really nervous. i didnt play as well as those previous practices..sigh..regret it. Haha..

hmmm..tak care everyone..

It's 5am now and I still can't get to sleep.

Images of those nasty pictures fills up my mind. I'm disgusted.

What is the world coming to?

Everything seems so weird. All I want to do now is to play my cello.

I can't believe it. Even as I am typing, my fingers are trembling. It's so shocking. And, the thing is..I've just realised how accurate my sixth sense is.

I think..I'll never trust anyone again. My role tonight is probably just to curse that person. Yes, I will. Because..if u were in my shoes, u will too.

The time to the concert is drawing nearer...why do I feel so..nervous? I just woke up from a nap and now, here I am, feeling blank and empty. I hope I will remember how to play "fantasy" later. I hope I won't make any more mistakes.

Sigh..bad news. I forgot to practice the christmas song over one more time. It's not very hard actually..just that the tempo is a little bit fast...and that we just got the scores yesterday. A four page christmas score! We didnt practice all, only the middle part..the chorus. Suddenly I feel so relieved that the SCO players would be playing with us.

Sigh..I'm afraid..

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

The movie Zathura is so cool! You MUST watch it! Where will u ever get the chance to see space in a big screen again, otherwise? :) hmmm..I like weird things..all my friends like em too..I think so..

I wish I could play zathura! The pieces move by themselves..just like jumanji! the movie was created by the same person actually..haha..

If I have the money, I would like to watch the cronicles of Narnia too..imagine going to another world through a door! That is cool! It seems so magical..doesnt it?

Today me and porridge went to eat sushi!! haha, it's a birthday treat from her. We ate a lot! All types of sushi..got lobster, tuna, prawn, cucumber, salmon! hahaha..=D and potato salad plus crispy chicken. oh!! and cheese cake..and orange juice..haha..a lot right? but still, we 2 monsters mangaed to finish it all up!!

hehe. Thanks so much for this treat JL!! It's the best ever! *beams* miss ya!!!

Hi, I'm back. Sigh..I'm so tired (-________________-)

okay, here to update bout my first and last day of work. When I heard that I could work for one day, I practically jumped off my seat. I was really excited. It was very rush though. Anyway, work starts from 8am to 8pm. Gosh!

I didnt bring my ez-link card [I lost it], neither did I wear shoes [I forgot]. Luckily I managed to slip through with a warning and someone's shoes. sort of. More like shoes in the front and slippers at the back. haha..Sigh..I became like sort of the center of attention there for forgetting to wear shoes! kinda embarrasing, if you ask me. :'( Sorry JL, for causing so much trouble..

Anyway, we started work after awhile. I folded boxes for awhile, then I was put in the run line. At first it wasn't so tiring, then it gets quite torturing, having to stand on the same place for hours without having anyone to talk to. I did considered chatting with the person beside me but she seemed like so busy. By the time we got the 1hr+ break, I was already worn out. Haha, cannot blame me..cos I was practicing cello earlier on, which is quite tiring. haha, espescially when playing those long pieces. After the break, I was even more tired. I made a number of mistakes..like forgetting to put the charger or putting two cables instead of just one. Whenever someone makes a mistake, the women there will nag at us. She will make sure everyone hears her. Another embarrassing incident. Haha, okay okay..it was my fault. :P

Overall, working was really tiring, but quite fun actually. I didn't really talked during work. I wanted to, but I really had nothing to talk about..it doesn't seem the same as talking to friends. After not talking for hours, I became quite anti-social. The people there must have thought that I'm really quiet. sorry!!!! Actually I am very very sociable! hahaha.. xD

byebye!!

hullo! Guess what? YES! you are right! I've turned 16! It's my birthday today. haha..

okay, this is going to be a long entry..so BEWARE of falling asleep..hahaha. Hm, I was planning to update my first and last day of work..but it'll make this entry super long, so guess I'll update tml! wahaha..

The chalet was super super fun fun fun! We barbequed on the first day. Chicken wings, hotdogs..blah blah..we brought marshmallows too but no one barbequed them! Dunno why. Yanting invented a new type of drink. Marshmallow in coke+orange miranda+water. She drank it all up..YES! ALL! omg..that is scary. xD after that, we celebrate me and silings birthday with choco cake. Mmm..all of us like hesitate to eat..cos very fattening..but we ate it anyway. I like the chocolate strawberry best! haha..after that was pillow fight! ouch..! They hit me until so hard..at least I better..aim their butts..not so pain ma..wahaha

The next day was fun too, but Amirul and Hafeez had to go back. sob. Siling and the others went to escape theme park, leaving humairah and us in the chalet. We didnt have enough money to go, BUT we had enough for a burger king meal! We ate and watched kids central. Then, we watched opera until both of us fell asleep. All of them came home after awhile, wearing sick faces. Haha..too much rollar coasters!

After that, We went to swim. That was one of the best activity among the 3 days! Erm..I dont know how to explain..but in some parts of the swimming pool, there were windows, or rather, glass..for us to view the people I guess. haha..so, I kept pestering humairah and Shi han to lend me their goggles just so that I could dive down and wave to the people. I did that for more than 10 times! Many people waved back, espescially the kids..and some stared at us curiously..haha..it's so cool. We met one little boy with his sister in the pool. He's so cute man. We kept chatting..and he did somersaults. After that, we played monkey in the middle. I was forced to be the monkey! Well, I had to..cos they stoled my rubber band!! arghh..=(

Wei long, kaming and Alvin joined us in the night. They brought M&Ms and chocolates! ooh..the boys played games while we [girls] played heart attack. damn fun. We shouted, screamed, laughed..until we got a complain for noise pollution! OMG! what the hell. Sigh..so, we went to the beach instead. We sat at the rocky cliff and viewed the sea, boats, island. We talked about weird things too, like space and sea creatures and living dolls. =D Haha, oh ya..we shared true ghost stories the day before. It made me believe in ghosts and aliens more. I was quite freaked out though. haha..so were the rest of them =p

hmm..guess I better stop before this entry gets any longer. =D hmm..I want to thank my friends for the pressies! yay..