Hi diary. Sigh..I'm so stressed. I feel so helpless....I don't know who to go to. I don't feel like talking anymore. I'm so tired. I had mixed feelings yesterday. I felt sad, helpless and tired. All these added up to anger. I don't know why I was so angry. I guess I'm angry at myself. I'm just so useless. I wanted to scream..I wanted to hurt myself. I wanted to end everything! I can't cope...I can't. All that I can do now is just work hard. Everyday is a nightmare. I am terrified. How I wish I could do something good..
Just something..
Hiya diary! Sigh...I didnt go to SYCO prac just now. I don't know why...I heard that there was going to be prac today and suddenly I was so flustered! I didnt know whether to finish all my work or go...actually, to be honest...I wanted to go. Sigh....I don't know. There's this voice in my head that keeps telling me to stay at home and finish all my work. I studied Chinese and did some POA revision, then I didnt have the mood to do anything esle. I practiced badminton, then listened to some songs. I wish I had someone to play with. Ahhh..I wanna go SYCO! I dont want to stay at home..so bored at home..
I'm doing my F&N project now..suddenly feeling so awake. Haha...
Hm, guess tt's all...byebye diary. Take care everyone! =)
Hi diary! I just came back from school. Only 1.38pm and I'm so tired already. Hm, guess I'll be studying again later. Today I'm going to prac cello at night..hehe..and after that I have to do my F&N project and hmk and theory. Will I finish everything in one day? I'm so tired...I need more time..
Yesterday all SYF performers and BLCC members were treated to dinner at Boon Lay Raja restaurant. There were many dishes, and most of us couldnt finish everything. haha..so wasteful. Percie sang some songs for us, then Shui Nan, then James. Haha..Mic and e others kept taking pictures of them. Next was the lucky draw! Guess what? Both Shui Nan and Jasmine won! Jas won a DVD player..haha..so cool..
After that, we went home. I practiced playing badminton for awhile. Haha, I really wish to learn badminton. Almost everyone in my class knows how to play...only me .. =( Hope we get to play badminton during tml's PE lesson. I feel so bad everytime I drop the ball. Haha..
Hm, guess tt's all..bye diary. Take care everyone!
Hi diary! haha, havent been updating for a long time. Exams and cultural night coming, so I've been quite busy. I'm not in school yet becos today's late day! Yay! =)
Recently, there has been a lot of moths or big butterflies about everywhere. It's so scary!! I saw one outside my house. It wasnt moving, so I inspected it for awhile. Then after awhile, it flew away, it must have sensed me watching it!! Ahhh..! I was going out so I quickly went down the lift. I walked towards the bus stop..until..I saw another one! It was on the ground, flapping its wings. I just frozed onto the ground. Someone was walking by, so it was really embarrassing. Haha..I walked the other way..luckily I didnt see anymore. Now, whenever something fly next to me, a bird or a leaf..my heart will jump. Yesterday, while walking back from school, I saw one again!! It flew around me..making me run like mad..haha..it's so scary!!!! They're out to get me!! =(
O levels are coming, so I cannot go out that often anymore. I miss everyone. ='(
bye diary..take care everyone!
Hiya diary! I've recovered fully!! Haha, except that my throat still hurts a little. Last Mon, I went down to e GP family clinic with my mom to see doctor. None of the other nearby clinics was open as it was Sunday. My throat hurt badly and I couldnt talk, so my neighbour suggested going to GP. There wasnt many people there, about 10 I think, but we waited for 2 whole hours before my turn came. When I went in, I finally understood why it took so long for the doctor to see just a few patients. Haha, she kept talking! She prescribed some medicine for me. I had difficulty swallowing the pills, so she gave me those liquid medicine, those for children de. haha..so embarrassing. Everything cost $40..so expensive! =(
I went home and took my medicine. The flu and fever ones tasted okay, like lemon. The cough one didnt taste so good, and the antibiotic tasted horrible!! Haha..I had to finish the whole bottle too :(
Now my cough is recovering, just in time for oral tml. :( I'm so nervous. There will be two examiners..I'm scared I wont find the right words to use..Haha..
Guess tt's all..bye diary. Take care everyone!
Hi diary. I'm really terribly sick. I shouldnt have forced myself to stay for tuition. I thought it was just a minor cough, but during Chinese, I started to feel groggy. My head started to hurt. However, I still could pay attention in class, so I stayed all the way until 4pm. While walking home, I felt very weak so I took bus home.
I reached home and just sleep. Thought that I would be okay after resting, but I felt more sick. I woke up with a swollen eye. My temp kept increasing. I thought I was going to die when it reached 38.3 degrees. I didnt know where the medicine was kept and which one to take, so I put a ice pack over my head. At 7pm, I finally forced myself to get out of bed and have dinner. After having dinner, I felt better. My temp decreased to 37.8. I thought I was going to get well but at night, I started coughing non-stop and developed a flu. My temp increased again. I took medicine and turned in early.
Today, I woke up with 2 swollen eyes. I still had a fever and cough, and developed a flu. Feel so sick. I couldnt go to prac. Sorry chanel. Sigh..I should have pay more attention to my health and go home to rest. Now I cannot study or prac cello or do my F&N project. Sob..feeling so sick..going to rest now.
Bye diary, take care everyone.
